Your urge for rebellion is going to make a few friends uncomfortable. You might be fighting something that they strongly believe in and it will cause friction between you guys.
There’s no use wishing on someone who clearly doesn’t think much of you as you do them. Move on! Someone else out there wants you.
Money is a touchy subject for you right now, especially since you have been having a hard time making ends meet. Don’t worry, some money will find its way to you soon enough.
Paranoia doesn’t suit you so get rid of it. There are a lot of things you can’t control, so those are the things that you just have to accept.